About me

Treasure Island in the SF Bay area
FBLA NLC award ceremony
Hiking to the top of a trail in Berkeley, CA
Photoshoot with my photographer friend Amy

I love the pain of striving towards my goals.

I'm self-aware and spend a non-trivial amount of time reflecting, either on paper because writing helps me think better or in my head because too much writing keeps me stuck in my thoughts. Or, more so in the near past, in conversations: some recent (as of time of writing: Aug 29, 2022) non-trivial discoveries about myself came from back-and-forths with smart people (ex. why I have a repulsion to abortion debates, why cheating on online tests doesn't align with other parts of my worldview).

I'm delighted to hear about your beliefs, but only if they're bold and preferrably controversial. I tend to feel more intellectually satisfied in retrospect from conversations where someone directly disagreed with me. Even better if I felt offended.

I love the emotional connection that can be made between me and another person during intimate/"deep" conversations. Talking to others is the primary activity I do for the purpose of fun.

I would publish a blog post 3 months after writing it when I want to reference it in another blog post, because it's hard for me to do work whose use I can't immediately see. I face this problem notably when learning theoretical math (or math in any context that's not during coding), but also when trying to work on apparently pretty much any goal (??) because the 4th rule of thermodynamics states that you'll always reach an empty answer if you ask why enough levels down.

Software engineering is intoxicating because it gives me a clear goal to focus on, unit tests to anchor myself to, well defined bugs to fix. It passes me out of the world of the whys and into the world of hows, where nothing matters except for the current line of code in front of me. I don't have to ask myself why it's valuable, I just know that we're pushing features and that's a good enough indication of progress.

I want this personal website to be about more than my work, but also illustrate who I am as a person (??) Yes, the work I do makes up a large amount of who I am, but portfolios fail to capture the intricacies of why talking to me is interesting. Every paragraph in this section above this one could be its own blog post, containing ideas I've thought about for hours -- either ideas I'd handpicked to be part of my worldview or personal flaws that shape a non-trivial number of my actions against my will. Perhaps this helps you understand more about who I'd be as a conversation partner or friend. Or perhaps, it's a total flop and doesn't resonate with you if you don't already know me.